Ok so I've made a decision that I actually made a while ago... but only now I guess you can say I officially made it. I don't want to go to Medical School... righ now I'd rather do graduate work in evolutionary genetics (or something of the sort). So it's kinda a big thing cause everyone knows I'm pre med so its gonna me annoying to tell everyone that I don't want med school but rather soemthing else. I told me parents this weekend and of coarse they are fine with it because they a) want me to do soemthing I'm happy with and b) they know I'll make a good decision. It's just still a big decision to officially make....... I kinda feel like planning for it has held me back form other things. I know we all need to think of the future and blah blah blah but i believe thinking of the future to much is bad because we are wasting our present....

kinda taking off that note i'm thinking about my future tattoo, yep its still in the futre because now I have no money but as soon as spring financial aid comes in I'm there. anyways some people know what I'm getting but I dont think a lot of people know the background behind it. So its a dove carrying a yellow flower. The flower has yet to be designed, possible a rose, not to sure. Anyways the story behind this. I decided if I was going to put something permanent on my body it was going to have a strong meaning behind it. So my tattoo is somewhat in memory, somewhat as a reminder of a freind we lost about a year and a half ago of cancer. so know you can understand the dove (which is often seen as a sign of peace) carrying the yellow flower. Basically everytime I think of John I am reminded fo how he choose to live his life and the joy he brought to other by his personality. I want something that will keep that forever.
So I don't know if its odd to be kinda memoralizing someone on my body. I'm thinking no since well this is what i want to do but you all can let me know what you're thinking if ur in the mood.